Friday, 28 June 2013

Small Steps

Its been 3 days since I publicly announced my goals and so far as well as inspiring others I am definitely feeling more alive (so to speak).

My meditation is going ok, just ok. I have been doing 10 minutes a day for the past 8 days. My brain is not getting any quieter but I am actually enjoying the time out and sitting still focusing on my breath and my thoughts.

The yoga is what I am most proud of. Yesterday I went to a class, I was super nervous and a little bit terrible. I can barely perform any of the excruciating moves and my weeny arms were shaking like they were about to crumble to dust. I had to keep turning round to see what everyone else was doing, therefore often losing my balance. I did not know how to perform The Warrior, Warrior 2, Dancing Warrior or whatever other warrior he was instructing us to be, but I tried and survived.  If I am totally honest I  even enjoyed it, especially at the end (although at the end you are cuddled under a blanket with your eyes closed just being still - that part was easy)! I do have to concentrate hard when everyone comes together and chants "Namaste", it takes everything I have not to laugh out loud. I don't know why I have the urge to burst into laughter when this happens but I do, so I need to focus and improve in this area. Then, as if it was a sign, today 5 yoga classes on Grabone. So I grabbed one. I've also been starting each morning with the following stretches   The journey to understanding and learning yoga has began.

Other than the yoga I have failed miserably at the exercise this week, attending only 1 boxing class. Instead I have been stepping up and down on my bookshelf holding 2 x 2kg dumbbells - I get bored quickly and stop so next week I am committing to at least 3 boxing classes! I have also failed to progress on goals 4, 5 and 6, but as they say 'one step at a time'.

Other things I have done to step out of my comfort zone:
 1) I turned up at my partners sister-in-laws house unannounced (whilst he was at work) asking to borrow her 18 month old daughter as an excuse to go the Winter Festival dog barking competition with someone (I never turn up alone, or unannounced). This may not sound like a big deal but I had written the text to Phil, "Please will you text and see if I can borrow Ruby this afternoon", and stopped just as I was about to press send. I used to be very independent and its been slipping away. I decided I can go there and ask myself, was I nervous? Yes, but thought worst case scenario they have plans and I cant borrow the little darling or they don't want me to borrow her so will pretend to have plans, not a big deal. Result? Everything was good and I went to the competition with my new best friend, hurrah!!!

2) I read the electric meter. Haha ok I know this sounds pathetic.... and it is!! I have a phobia that the creepy journalist next door is plotting to kill me. Well maybe not quite kill me but I am convinced that he dislikes me immensely. The meter is right outside his bedsit front door, and the door has no curtain so I fear he will either a) think I am spying on him and attack me unexpectedly, or b) open the door, drag me in and keep me prisoner in his basement. As pitiful as this sounds I have yet to admit this to anyone so for the last 12 months have been sending my flatmate or Phil to read the meters. NEWSFLASH - Jasmine grows some balls and reads her electric meter. I'm embarrassed by this revelation but sharing it as I feel most of the time (no matter how big or small) our fears seem irrational and silly to others. From now on if I am aware that any of my fears seem silly, or irrational, I will be facing them head on. No Excuses!

3) This one isn't so much stepping out of my comfort zone, more making a decision. I have become terrible at making decisions, I don't know how and when this started to happen but the past 12 months I have been shrugging my shoulders, stating "I don't care", "I don't mind" and pretending I am happy to do what everyone else wants to do. This is not me. So on Wednesday I told Phil we were going bowling and having takeaway noodles for tea. Nervous for his response to my new found voice I was half expecting him to protest, instead I got a simple "Sounds good babe". Wow it felt good too!!

So I'm 99% sure nothing in this post will blow your socks off or over inspire but this is my life and these are the few small steps I have taken in the past 3 days. In fact they are extremely small steps but honestly I am feeling heaps better in myself already. I am looking forward to throwing myself into the yoga next week and finally sorting my travel plans.

Hope your having a great day and doing whatever makes you a more confident and happy person :)

Tuesday, 25 June 2013

3 Month Goals

Right...... I have been granted (somehow due a miraculous demonstration of belief by my employer) some much needed time off work!! That's right... I have a ticket to do whatever I want and guess what two weeks have already flown by with minimal achievement so I have decided to set some short term goals to ensure I make the most of my new found freedom.

1)   Learn to Meditate - I have a very very busy brain - literally it doesn't shut up! I am both inspired and haunted by my thoughts! Worst of all when I try to think of nothing, that is when EVERYTHING attempts to invade. I have signed up to and have a beginners guide to meditate. I am ready to clear the clutter in my head. 

2) Learn Yoga - the hippy shit has never really interested me, but I am currently super aware of how calm and relaxed many of my yogi friends are. I want some of their Zen so I will try this to ease myself into tranquility

3) Loose the dimples in my thighs - I am secretly addicted to my boxing exercise class which I go to between 2 - 4 times a week. My upper body and arms are (excuse my arrogance) nicely toned, ass and thighs however- not so much. Therefore I will commit to daily leg exercises / moisturizing furiously into those areas to remove the evil bumps

4) Sell a piece of writing -
Seven years ago I graduated with a BA Hons Journalism degree and although I never followed that path I want to write. When I put pen to paper, or start tapping away on my keyboard I get lost in a world that is all mine and I find it so liberating.  I haven't sold any work for about six years so I'm going fire up the creative Jazz and attempt to sell a piece of work. What exactly I haven't decided yet....

5) Trip Overseas - Before I settled in New Zealand, I traveled through South East Asia alone. It was ok. I mean at the time it was AMAZING. However since then I have holidayed with friends and also boyfriends and it really is much better when you can share and relive that experience with someone else. I am aware though, that I need to get out of my comfort zone, dust off the backpack and venture off into the unknown and leave my poor boyfriend behind to worry. So despite my fear of being too old to go gallivanting alone, this week I will take the plunge and book a backpacking adventure.

6) Develop an Additional Income - So this goal has come from the too many self-help books I have read and a recent course I did regarding personal foundation. They state how important it is to find an income stream on top of your salary - that eventually requires little work, eventually helping you towards financial freedom. I am working towards achieving an additional $150 per week. Hopefully it could potentially tie in nicely with goal number 4.

So there they are - six fairly large (well I think so) goals that I hope to achieve by September. I might need some help and inspiration for some of these, but I am generally a pretty positive person and as Walt Disney once famously said  "If you can dream it, you can do it". 

Watch this space........... xxx

Sunday, 23 June 2013

Self Improvement

Welcome to my brand new blog.

After an entire year of rebuilding my life, after a particularly unexpected break up, I have found myself at a complete crossroads. I have been so focused on moving forward with life I have literally steam trained straight into a brick wall.

Don't get me wrong, life is good. Very good in fact. I live in a beautiful, small and fun town in the South Island of New Zealand. I have great friends, a loving boyfriend and prosperous career. I constantly carry a can-do, positive attitude and excitingly planning my future. 

BUT....... (why is there always a but? One of my many flaws I am currently trying to fix) I just don't feel fulfilled. Something is missing and over the next few months I will be setting goals, pushing myself out of my comfort zone and trying new things in an attempt to unlock what tools I need to be a better version of myself.

In my inspiration page I will post quotes and photos to inspire and motivate and my Laugh out Loud page is designed to do just that - make you smile and simply brighten your day.

My next post will be short term goal setting, until then keep smiling.....